That awkward moment when..

I realize some things that have just been sitting in front of my face the entire time. I’ve been pinged lately by what I call ‘Team Celt’ which isn’t meant to be as insulting as it may sound. Maybe I should rename it ‘Team Green’ or ‘Home Team’ or something.

Now I’ve had dreams about going to England, being happy there, etc. Some months ago I had this one dream that I was somewhere in England and I was speaking respectfully to this one God. Now I’m ‘told’ this is/was Cernunnos but given my associations with Ullr that would be no surprise. But I have a strong feeling (I didn’t write it down anywhere dumb@$$ that I am) that it was a God of the Sun and Fire.

Well I didn’t think too much on this dream until I had this dream last week about this one guy telling me it was an honour to meet me and he had long stringy blonde hair. Said his name was ‘Al’ or something like that. Then I had another dream two nights ago about a character and he was wearing this nice button down mint green shirt.

Which made me somehow rethink on the ‘Team Celt’ dream. So I did some research on Sun and Fire Gods, coming up with Belenus. So I was asking my Dragon Tarot if this was some sort of new path I should pursue. And it occurred to me that it would be ancestrally correct, so I looked up my father’s mother’s maiden name. (My paternal grandmother). Her maiden name was Hitchcock.

I do remember my father telling me at some point, he had a grandmother with the last name of White, which also resonates. Now my father’s last name of course is Larsen. And my mother’s maiden name was Venditti and her mother’s (my maternal grandmother) maiden name was Garofalo so that’s pure Italian.

So there very unmistakably is English in my family ancestry/history which neatly ties all of this in together. Plus as I’m typing this I’m getting a lot of clue by fours (even as weird as a mention of Sunnyvale on plurk and solar panel spam email advertisements, two Stonehenge references in articles/television and an advertisement on FB), not to mention the fact that when I asked my Dragon Tarot if I should do/pursue some sort of relationship with this God Belanos, and the first card I pulled was The Sun.

And I wonder why I’ve always felt such a huge tug to go to England and Ireland and go live there if I ever get a chance to. And this explains why, which is a huge relief.